My first blog post- ever

04 Feb 07 Sunday
After several failed attempts at knitting I have finally conquered the what to be thought impossible. I am well on my way to becoming an experienced knitter. I am really jazzed about it too. I find myself thinking about knitting quite alot these days. Much of my mind control , wake up in the middle of the night thoughts revolve around it now. Which is a really good thing. I used to wake up and worry about my kids, are they ok or will I wake up in the morning to find them dead in their beds? What about my husband? Does he really love me or is it a just a facade so he won't feel like a loser if he leaves me? What can I do better to make him crazy in love with me? Or the dreaded bills fear- what if we can't pay the mortgage next month? I just know we will end up on the street holding those signs begging for spare change from strangers and the kids will go hungry and get some terrible disease and I will find them dead in their cardboard box wrapped up in dirty old carpet behind a trash can while trying to stay warm. I don't know why the dreaded thoughts come in the peaceful quiet of the night but I sure am glad that knitting now occupies that space . I think about stitches I want to try and how did I do that again? I work stitches in my sleepy brain and hope they will still be there in the morning so I can remember and execute them into something real I can hold in my hand and admire. I count stitches instead of sheep to fall asleep. I Love knitting!